Babies, calorie deficit, & more!

I literally had multiple panic attack like moments on our honeymoon due to my new biggest fear. I am terrified that now that I am married I will gain like a huge amount of weight. (Like way more than the amount I've gained recently)

I have just witnessed so many women (and men too) that I've gone to school with, known, follow, etc that get married then lose themselves. It's like ring on and they stop taking care of themselves and that's my biggest fear.

I don't even know why though? Fitness is a huge part of my life and Tim's life. Not to mention, even if I was not blessed by the husband gods with a fit man, I would never let someone else's habits change mine.

I just have irrational thoughts sometimes😂 I`m just a girl, okay??

Anyways, now that I have discussed my newest anxiety- let's talk about everything else going on.

I've lost my period. After my miscarriage in July, I had a period then nothing since. It definitely scares me.

I know I have gained some weight since especially during the last like 2 months before the wedding because I intentially was like I am enjoying every moment and didn't want to stress about it. Could that be it?

Could it just be stress? Like I was driving myself crazy during that season.

It, also, could be hormone related because my midwife did say your cycle is unpredictable for a while after a miscarriage.

I know I'm not pregnant because I've taken multiple pregnancy tests which has led to some sadness but let's not get into that. I know it will happen.. and the baby name list has grown.

Here's my current plan- this is to help the wife weight gain fear and potentially the period loss.

I have been sticking to my workouts, tracking most days, trying to sleep when my body tells me too (I am not good at resting), and staying hydrated. I, also, haven't really been drinking. My goal is to shed some fat and see if that helps bring my period back.

This past week I had some unplanned untracked days so I am just going to give myself grace and move on to the plan.

I, also, need to increase my steps in addition to my workouts. I know this is a big factor in weight loss and I just need to stick to it!

I am going to do this until the end of the year without going to the Dr. If getting back into my routine and these steps don't bring it back- I will make an appointment and figure out what is going on.

Right now, I am doing basic calories in vs calories used tracking and not counting macros. Just making sure, obviously, that protein is pretty high.

I have a feeling that stress is currently not helping the situation so I`m trying to find the balance between pushing myself without getting to the point of fixation.

My routine has just been so off for months for so many exciting reasons but I am ready for life to calm down and just be.

I will keep you updated on all of this for sure!

Now onto just thanking everyone for the continued well wishes and support!! Every day since our wedding I've had people message or talk to me- asking me baout married life, congratulating me, etc and it's amazing! Like everyone is so awesome. I am so happy!

So thank you, seriously!

I will be beack next week! See you next Tuesday xx

P.S. Wish Amy a happy birthday if you have not already!! Our 👑 is 48 and fabulous today!!