You know what's hard?

Summer. And it's so hard to say this because I LOVE SUMMER.

There's ice cream, wine night, a cookout, or a concert on every corner.

Not to mention the endless summer activities that disrupt everyday life.

It's so much fun but, if I'm being honest, it kind of stresses me out. As someone who thrives in routine, I've been finding it hard to balance the love of summer and routine.

I love to have fun and do all the things- obviously. The concerts, the pool days, the weekend getaways, etc.

I, also, love to clean my house on Friday evenings so it's ready for the weekend, workout on Saturday mornings then pick up my groceries in the afternoon, and have time to mentally prepare for the week on Sunday.

Am I alone here?

Is there ever really a balance? Do I worry about it and if not then how do I let it go?

I`m still working on the letting go thing.

Yesterday I almost fully crashed out because I now have to go with a slightly different vase for my wedding and I can't stop thinking about it and trying to solve the issue.

There's really not even an issue and no one will know but me but it's driving me up a wall.

It helps that my weekdays kind of are normal.

I say kind of because there are week events and such now that pop up and my fiancé has an unpredictable work schedule.

My family and I celebrating Mom last week!

Monday- be Amy's assistant from 9-6 which makes me so happy, workout, and then go home.

Tuesday to Thursday- I wake up, do the morning routines, head to work, go home to change, and workout for a class or two, and then head back home for the rest of the evening.

Friday- Very similar but Friday night is always up in the air.

Anyways, I just know my sister is reading this thinking I'm literally insane.

Maybe so but at least I'm insane and honest about it okay?

Advice I've been given and give- focus on what you can control.

Which is true and helpful.

I can (attempt) to control my perspective, the food I choose to fuel my body with, to move my body as much as I can, and I can choose to look at the unknown as exciting.

Which I'll do but I wanted to share how I'm feeling in this moment.

It's not like I`m going to say no to all the fun things or stop cleaning my house but I just wanted to put my feelings out there. Like I can't be the only one who gets a little anxious as the seasons change and life looks different again.

It's exciting and fun but also my stress levels are a little higher😅

I'm going to lift some weights tonight at 6 then Belly Dance and plan some wedding things to relax.

Until Next Tuesday xx

~ Bekah